Your Beautiful

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Flying high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

Summer reading.. fuck it

I should be reading my summer reading book that I didn't even start yet, but Im not going to.

I finally uploaded my california pictures, so here goes budday's. Just check out my photobucket, cause there's like 6 pages of pictures.

So my pictures weren't coming up, so I just got rid of them.. yeah.. so tonight should be fucking.. amazing. But where are we gonna do this ?
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    SNFU- reality is a ride on the bus

Home sweet... home ?

Im back! This entry may be a little long, only cause I didn't have any journal or anything with me, which was stupid. Alright, so we ( grandma and I ) left for california last saturday, and got there around 11ish, but it took about an hour to get from lax to sanata ana where my great aunt lives. We just sat around for like 3 days.. so fucking borning. My aunt was really cool in the beginning, until she started to like slowly give you a taste of her real personality. Her personality sucks... seriously she needs a slap. When I was frustrated looking for gifts for everyone, she told me I need to take responsibility, I need to know what I want, and where to get it. Listen to yourself, I don't fucking live her I wouldn't know. When you indecisive with her, she'll yell at your for hours... I dislike her ever so much. We did go on a tour though, and that fucking rocked. The best beach in the world.. is venes beach. It has this vibe that no other place seems to have, and everything.. I mean everything is grafeeted.. and it's so beautiful. I loved it. <3 We also went to laguna beach.. it sucked.. it was full of highend shops, and stupidass shit. They had this thing going on called the sawdust festival, all about the arts, cause thats what laguna beach is know for. But of course we didn't go. Im deffently happy to be home, but I loved not having to wake up early for work, and working millions of hours. I missed all my freinds !!!

Yesterday I got home at 1 in the morning, and went to be around 3. My room was magically cleaned while I was gone, that was nice of my family. Thne emily called, and we hung out till like 12 with Joe <3 Hmm.. yeah nuf said about that.. he's a fucking... yeah. We had quite an adventure.. Im not going to go into detail, but it involved.. a greasey weave, snorting, the movie 13, and us.. lol I <3 you emily !!
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    tired tired

I won't miss you after today

I realised today when I went shoping with my mom for california clothes.. that.. I hate shoping. It's not that clothes that bother me.. it's me. It's also the fact that no matter what... if Im supose to be getting clothes.. mom will pick up a few things she needs to. I didn't even spend all the $100 bucks dad gave to mom to spend on me, there's nothing else I feel comfortable in.. then big shirts.. and big jeans.. and so there.

and god do i not want to go to work today.. or tomorrow. I just wanna do what I like to do.. be it being softly addicted to the computer.. as mom calls it.. or taking pictures.. or hanging out with me freinds.. really anything but spending the last days before I can relax working my ass off... I just don't want to anymore

if there's one thing he taught me.. it was how to shut my feelings off.. I've become quite good at it to.
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    I wish I was listening to white stripes

In a fucking kinda mood

Little quoties someone said to me.. kinda weird.. the manic state of bipolar disorder scares me.. people don't know what the fuck they are doing, or saying.. fucking freakyass shit

i could fuck you whenever i wanted you to stop talking

and innapropriately i've never wanted to fuck anyone as much as i do you right this moment

today at work some tall gothic boy called my manager a bitch

love is never having to say your sorry

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Wake up your mind

you're very strange and beautiful. and i'm an idiot. sorry.

I wish I could believe you

Just tie a silk sheet round your neck
And twist it till your face turns cherry red
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    Deadsy-Future years

I feel Like...

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Oh the joys of nice messages carved in the stone... reminds me of dane cook, and the bathroom!! I can't wait till his new cd comes out!! ( On a side note.. just thought I'd add the drink I had yesterday, I looked at the top, and it said Im beautiful... ha.. I find it funny that a bottle can say that, but not a real person )

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I <3 this picture X's a trillion

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I don't know why I like this picture, but it was right after I droped my camera, and some guy said you better pick it up before I do... what a mother

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No... no you can't go that way...

If anyone wants to come shopping with me after work, just call around 4, I need to get shit for california, and I only have $30 to do so.. whoopie for sucky checks!!

hope everyone feels better!!
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    Live forever